It is Going to be a Very Long Year!

This last week has been uneventful when it comes to events anyways. My emotions have been running wild though. There was one thing that I forgot to mention in my last post, well I didn't forget I sort of left it out on purpose. I got a positive pregnancy test several days ago, three actually. It was the night before my appointment with my RE and I had been feeling so so tired (I still am) so I decided to take a test. I was stund when it came out positive. It was fairly faint but Nick saw it too and he never sees the imaginary lines that I do. I didn't really think that it was possible for me to be pregnant because I had had a blood test a few days before that showed low E2 meaning that I probably hadn't ovulated. The next morning I took another pregnancy test and it was positive again. Same with the one that afternoon. I then went to the doctor and my ultrasound showed no change and so did my E2. The doctor did a progesterone test that showed low results. I didn't ovulate nor was I pregnant. I never really believed that I was so I was shocked that when it was confirmed that I wasn't pregnant I was devistated, I couldn't stop crying. I later found out after hours of searching the internet that Menopur can cause false positive pregnancy tests because it contains small amounts of hcg.

Nick and I have decided to get our names in to recieve donated embryos. It is affordable as far as fertility treatment goes but the bad part is that there is at least a three year waiting list. We are trying to decide what to do this next year as far as treatments. As far as we know our plan is to get healthy (and pray I start ovulating on my own) and to save up possible for a round of IVF in december or january of next year. I am not confident that this is the way to go because I don't know how I will respond to the stims or if the IVF will result in a pregnancy in the first place, all of the what ifs worry me.

What ever happens Nick and I are buying a house and when we do we are going to become foster parents. I really want a baby of my own but three years is a long time to wait and we becoming foster parents will allow us to have children in our lives.
So that is the update for this week, I am not sure when I will post again I really don't see much happening anytime soon. Have a wonderful weekend and I hope all your dreams come true in the new year.