So much has happened since my last post. First of all, we got the house! The appraisal went well and we can take possession on April 1st. Second item up for discussion is that I figured out that I am going to school for auto body. I have always been good at art and love the heck out of it and since we will have our own shop I can still work from home like I have always wanted to do which will be great when we eventually have kids.
Now that we got that business out of the way, I have some very important things that I need to talk about. Nick and I have made some important decisions in the past few weeks and it is up for debate on whether or not we will eventually change our minds regarding these decisions (and by we I mean me).
Remember when I said that we were going to wait until December to start doing treatments again, well after much thought and discussion we have decided to wait even longer, possibly a few years longer. Of course this decision will be re-evaluated once December rolls around but for right now we think that it is the right decision for us. I feel that LTTTC is stealing my youth. I eat sleep and breathe infertility, it causes more stress than my body can handle and I can't do this anymore, at least for the time being. I was talking to nick about these feeling and we started discussing how much freedom we have. If we save up for six months we can afford a pretty decent vacation especially after I am done with school. We won't have to worry about a baby sitter, or being late because our baby took forever to get ready. We can make spontaneous weekend trips. We could buy a car and remodel our new house. If we were to have a baby in the next year we couldn't do any of these things. The truth is I am not ready to spend $5000 dollars a month until we get pregnant and at least I can have some control over my life if I make it my decision not to have a baby right now. Instead of filling myself with the love of a baby I can fill myself with material things and trips. I really do think that waiting is our best option maybe something unexpected will come of this just because we decided to wait. Maybe I will get pregnant on my own in the next few year, I really doubt it but I won't give up hope. I feel like this is the end of a chapter for us but when one door closes another one opens, especially if your the one that shut the door in the first place. There are a few other things that I want to discuss but now is not the time. That is all for now. Have a great weekend.
